Reluctant Retiree

What do you do when you are in trouble? Do you lash out at the one causing the problem? Sometimes I do. Especially if I don’t understand the issue. Do you ignore it, hoping it goes away? I do this sometimes also. Often it seems like more trouble to resolve the issue than to push it under a carpet. Or perhaps, you go to a safe place with your struggle, like a trusted friend or counselor.

We all try one of these options, or perhaps others, when we are faced with a problem. Sometimes they help and other times they don’t. The overriding truth is that we will all face hurts and pain. Some troubles will be justified and we will feel that others are not justified.

I came across some interesting verses in the book of Psalm today. They give me a lot of hope when faced with difficulties, struggles, pain and suffering. Psalm 57:1-3 says, “Be merciful to me, O God, be merciful to me, for in you my soul takes refuge; in the shadow of your wings I will take refuge, till the storms of destruction pass by. I cry out to God Most High, to God who fulfills his purpose for me. He will send from heaven and save me; he will put to shame him who tramples on me, God will send out his steadfast love and his faithfulness!”

God knows each hurt we suffer. He cares about us. When we are suffering, we can look for His steadfast love and faithfulness to be sent to us. We can take refuge in Him and He will cover us.

Right now I am sitting in a room that I recently painted. As I look around, I can see the mistakes I made and the places that I did a good job. I want to somehow cover up the errors and enhance the view of the good places.

Sometimes I do the same type of review of my life. It is easy to remember the mistakes and feel the sorrow. It takes a little more effort to remember the good choices and actions that I took. Somehow I can feel appreciation for those good times.

All this is easy to understand when we read Psalm 32:10-11; “Many are the sorrows of the wicked, but steadfast love surrounds the one who trusts in the Lord. Be glad in the Lord, and rejoice, O righteous, and shout for joy, all you upright in heart!”

Sin brings sorrow. If we are honest, we can confirm that as we examine our past. On the other hand, righteousness surrounds us in love. Again, an honest evaluation of our past will confirm that. So as we go through our day, we can remember the warning and the promise of these verses, and choose sorrow or steadfast love. I pray that you and I will choose uprightness and love today.

I don’t know about you, but I spend a good portion of my day doing things that make me feel good about myself. For the most part I eat nutritious foods, not just to be healthy, but also to demonstrate that I am a healthy person. I have made walking a habit, again not just to be healthy, but to show myself and others that I have a healthy lifestyle. I try to be honest, giving, kind and temperate not just to get along with people, but also so that they think that I am a good person.

Even the good things that I do have some degree of self righteousness involved in my motives. I seem to think that I can show myself to be righteous regardless of my heart attitudes. The Bible clearly states that all my efforts to be righteous are just filthy rags. God is not impressed with my good works, done in my own strength, and largely done for my own glory.

God wants us to recognize that we cannot be righteous in our own schemes. He wants our hearts not just self righteous acts. Psalm 51:16-17 says, “For you will not delight in sacrifice, or I would give it; you will not be pleased with a burnt offering. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.”

When we learn that we truly have nothing to offer God, but our broken hearts, then we are in a place where God will heal, deliver, and save us. If we cling to our self righteousness, He will not accept our offerings, no matter how good they appear to us or others.

Our youngest granddaughter just turned two. She is beginning to assert herself. The favorite question of most toddlers is simply, ‘why?’ They are trying to figure out their world, so they want to know why things are the way they are. Why must they behave in certain ways? Why can’t I do this?

As we get older we tend to lose some of our inquisitive nature and start to just accept things the way they are. Of course, not all of us lose the inquisitive character and all of us don’t lose all questioning habits. It is good to gain understanding and wisdom.

One question that we are all trying to answer is “Why am I here?” Another way to put this question is “What will be the end result of my life?” For believers in Jesus Christ the answer is certain with no room for doubt. I Thessalonians 4:16-18 says, “For the Lord himself will descend from heaven with a cry of command, with the voice of an archangel, and with the sound of the trumpet of God. And the dead in Christ will rise first. Then we who are alive, who are left, will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air, and so we will always be with the Lord. Therefore encourage one another with these words.”

Those who have put their trust in Jesus will be raised up to live eternally in His presence. He has granted us salvation in order to live forever with us in the New Heaven. If you are a believer, rejoice, and give Him praise. If you are not a believer yet, today is the day of salvation. Don’t wait! Give your life to Jesus!

I can be so noncommittal about some things while zealously fervent about others. I generally don’t care what we have for dinner, but don’t you dare get in the way of me watching my favorite team. I may not mind if someone ignores me, but if I am saying something important you had better listen, even if you disagree. I do not fixate on the clothes I wear, but other people are not allowed to harm my loved ones.

On the small decisions, it is okay to be wishy-washy. However, on life’s big decisions we should be diligent to seek good answers. If we’re buying a house, we should get wise counsel and do our research.

However, it is not enough to just make informed wise decisions. We must then take definitive action in line with those decisions. In the book of Revelation, Jesus criticized and warned the church in Laodicea for being wishy-washy in their faith. He said, “I know your works: you are neither cold nor hot. Would that you were either cold or hot! So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth. For you say, I am rich, I have prospered, and I need nothing, not realizing that you are wretched, pitiable, poor, blind, and naked. I counsel you to buy from me gold refined by fire, so that you may be rich, and white garments so that you may clothe yourself and the shame of your nakedness may not be seen, and salve to anoint your eyes, so that you see. Those whom I love, I reprove and discipline, so be zealous and repent.”

This church, like some of us, had become complacent and thought that they did not need God. They considered themselves well off and therefore lost their love for God. Jesus, however, warned them that they were in great danger. They needed to repent of their pride and wishy-washy nature. If they did that, Jesus promised to give them clothes of righteousness and remove their sins.

We also need to repent of wishy-washy faith and pride. We must ask God to inspire within us a passionate love of God and a dependent, but active faith.